pick it apart

yikes

Thu, 14 Jul 2005 13:47:21 GMT

i miss my old life.

i love my new one.

but i miss lc.

Tue, 10 May 2005 03:24:49 GMT

it's a boy.

what are we doing

Sun, 10 Apr 2005 02:34:31 GMT

senseless problems

everything seams so irrelevant when you dissect it

i will wear the gold to symbolize my faith

not in god
but in humanity

perhaps that is entirely more foolish of me.... because humanity seems to be killing civilization faster than anything else;

... too bad it's not only cynicism

truth hurts
but reality kills

blahhhh

Tue, 29 Mar 2005 17:44:21 GMT

my baby is due october 4th.

maybe soon i'll stop barfing.

support for your boobs and for your sole

Sun, 06 Mar 2005 02:18:14 GMT

nine weeks and three days

and i'm still alive

and i'm still happy

and i still wonder about it

pop pop pop exxxplode

Tue, 18 Jan 2005 06:48:42 GMT

twenty years
kinda long

nine months
not so long

i hate four letter words/// i just used seven of 'em

1.24.85

sick camo, bro. for real.

Tue, 14 Dec 2004 04:14:29 GMT

brother came home then brother left. back to iraq. cried. my whole family did. watched him board the plane that could take him away from us forever. he walked down the little hall thing to his plane. didn't turn around. dad half carried mom back to the car. we had special clearance. military family, and all. we had to send him back to the worst place in the whole world. i fucking LOVE my family. i would kill for my brother. and more importantly, i would die for my brother. but instead, statistically speaking, according to the percentages of people in his position and in his location who are in his location for the same period of time that he is, he will die for me. and every other lousy fucking american. "support the troops"... like anyone even knows what that fucking means. you can stand by your country, you can justify this meaningless war. but you're not supporting the troops because THEY DON'T WANT TO BE THERE. ask one of them. ask any of them. they all want to fucking come home. if you voted for george bush, you don't support your fucking troops, you don't even respect them.

ask any one of them who they would vote for, if their vote was counted.

fuck this war.
fuck this country.
fuck this president.
i want my brother back. whole.

Tue, 30 Nov 2004 16:45:40 GMT

i ruin lives
like tornados and hurricanes and gunshots and ex girlfriends

loveable like cacti, that's me

i will blow you a hundred bubbles just so you can burst each and every one

it's gonna give me a heart attack

Tue, 23 Nov 2004 12:50:27 GMT

mondays are the best day of the week //end quote

wah wah wahhhhhhhh i'm a turkey, festive and plump and rotund

and jolly

like a rancher?

numb footed this morning
but still smiling: always smiling

email from my brother, a soldier in iraq

Tue, 02 Nov 2004 21:11:48 GMT

im glad yesterday is over
i have never experienced what those 11 bravos have, i cant even imagine direct fire
yeah i was sitting outside of our command post because our first sergeant had a private phone call and we had to step outside. we were just sitting down on the cement sidewalk , my friend browning was reading a ranger joe's magazine and our other buddy Jones was sitting with us. Out nowhere i see this big hot red flash out of the corner of my right eye, i felt the pressure change and it took the air out of my lungs...i could hear the WHOOOOOSH of shit go over my head i could see two people about the same distance from the blast on the opposite side of it just drop one of them started screaming medic a couple seconds after i was sitting luckily..if i had been standing i probably would of got hit
all three of us were sitting
that was the only one of 14 that came in that landed near us
it was damn close
i went def for a good minute
i felt it
i never felt that before
i cannot believe it ill never forget that noise that feeling
im praying that we stop these guys from doing this shit and i know we have the firepower to do it. but collateral damage is all important this time
the majority of our casualties come from a four and a half mile stretch of raod just outside of our base....
that stretch of road is out of control and the united states military cannot control it

four and one half mile stretch of road
and we cant touch it
on the news they say that the "insurgents do this " "the foreign terrorists" all these lies.....they dont just say that the entire city is up-in-arms against us ...defending their country against an illegal immoral foreign occupation
or that we are experiencing massive opposition from the general population...which is where 99% of our combatant-detainees come from

i have to go now i love you everybody ill be coming home soon
if the mortar is gonna get me it will get me no use being afraid

***i really hope you went out and voted if you could.

i'm a firecracker

Fri, 29 Oct 2004 04:02:12 GMT

there was a lunar eclipse last night i saw it and i liked it
i paint 8 nails gold and 2 green due to indecisiveness
i sleep more at a gross apartment than my own cozy home because i like it better there
i get nauseous after i eat mexican food but i'll still eat it because someone else buys it
i get really mad then forget why 2 seconds later
i steal when i don't need to because i am a glutton for punishment
i missed class today because i was reading harry potter and pushing skippy off the bed
i carved a pumpkin with the most beautiful person i have ever seen
i like big noses better than perfect ones (like my own)
my boobs are swollen and i like them that way
november 11th i wil go on a 10 day hiatus (or haitius, according to some)
those 10 days will be spent with my older brother, a hero in my eyes

i like trusting someone with secrets no one knows
and i like when "someone" trusts me back

i will be a ballerina for halloween and stephen will be a twinkie and that is why we are good together

the end

youre pinching two hard

Wed, 20 Oct 2004 15:08:04 GMT

six months later

it works well for me, whatabout youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu

it doesnt get any easier than this bitches
suck it up and smile

cold and sunny mood this fall i like i like i liiiiike

Fri, 01 Oct 2004 02:19:02 GMT

emphasize the right nouns/stress the proper verbs

delete the adjectives and you'll have the facts

wonders are worked in puddles

i'm flyingggggggggggg[intotrees]

/your very being

Sun, 05 Sep 2004 14:49:09 GMT

sometimes nyour background vocals (DEEP IN YOUR BRAIN) make more sense than the screaming/yelling/crying voices of your conscience or maybe it's better to just go deaf to yourself

i am not your doormat ma'am and i would thank you not to wipe your feet all over my face

can't burn my face off, my skin is too pretty
what a pity

nothing so fragile as your eyelids' flutter

Thu, 02 Sep 2004 02:07:28 GMT

you're fading
you're fading
you're fading you're fading
yourefading
yourefading
yourefading
yourfading
yorfading
youfadin
yourfadin
when does itend when doesitstart to blendinto nothing

prey for them

the wind is like magic and the sky is falling

Thu, 26 Aug 2004 13:28:59 GMT

there's something screaming in my head

it's telling me to run away
but my feet can't move an inch

wash it away wash it away like they say

blue taffeta for the masses

i could just snort you

Fri, 20 Aug 2004 13:13:22 GMT

because i feel so high when you're next to me.... you=cocaine, of course of course

i can put together my own telescopes, thank you very much!!!//!!

take you 7 scent refund and jumppppppp \off a cliff/

sometimes when i smile it cracks my skin

thank you i will have another

where our heads once were is where i will be

Thu, 12 Aug 2004 14:58:52 GMT

fantastically insane, i think i would like to try on today

i fill up like a balloon when kissed under a night's sky... one littered with meteors that dazzle the eye

the only thing prettier than the sky last night was him

hear the crowd calling out for you to leave/////bye

Mon, 02 Aug 2004 18:11:01 GMT

wrap it around a tree like i want your car to do''''settheexamplebaybee

one day feels like never again

why would i ask for this when you can give it to me for free}

twenty eight is the best colour by far

wear it like you own it\even though you never could pull that off

kill yourself to save the whales

Thu, 15 Jul 2004 22:16:20 GMT

:::sarcasm)

bah loofah lame

infused with real anger

Mon, 12 Jul 2004 01:11:42 GMT

thepigro astwa sama zing

i love wolverines. the, that is.

sameboy,,,smiles?

/iliketolovethings/

wouldn't it be nice if

Thu, 08 Jul 2004 22:13:00 GMT

coconuts.... what a way to win them over.

don't eat the pudding, it's tainted with my blood

i talk in my sleep

clean out your bed springs baby

Tue, 29 Jun 2004 01:40:19 GMT

somethings are carved in deep

i think i hate periods and commas more than i hate most things in life because they always try to signify what needs to be broken up and what if everything just needs to flow who's to say that we should have pauses like that

? are okay

fuck your semicolons

Fri, 25 Jun 2004 03:06:32 GMT

everything is diagonally straight and delightfully well-rounded

to break up the mundane we have some air

maybe if i was spicier you'd ask for a second helping or maybe you would just get indigestion and quit

i burp you up in large quantities
and i must say
it tastes better going in

tap dance

how was i conviiiiinced that this was worth it?

Tue, 15 Jun 2004 16:13:54 GMT

punctuation is for suckers

nothing will ever break me up like that

someday this will start to make sense